And in today's society it is commonplace to make a resolution. Or several if you feel the need. I have the normal, lose weight, better myself, and get a better hold on our finances, resolutions.

But then I have another one.


To better my spiritual standing. Or at least that is how I feel it should be worded. Listening to the Podcasts which I do frequently, it makes me ponder my current situation. As I have said before I do not know anyone currently in this area believing in the same things I do. Not that they don't exist, just that if they do, they are likely afraid to come out as I always have been, and admit to being "different." 

For years I put my spirituality on the back burner, and tried to pretend I was like everyone else. Why would I do such a thing? Two main reasons. One my family is predominately Christian, and the Bible mistakenly says "Though shall not suffer a witch to live." Secondly because the only people I have ever truly met claiming to be Wiccan in my area were not quite what I thought them to be. As a young woman living on my own, I met up with a woman who claimed to believe in the same things I did. I thought it was almost destiny to meet someone older and wiser that could guide me, a person that I could confide things about this in, and no longer feel so alone. Sadly it was not to be, this person I do not wish to speak ill of, as I have always hoped she would be in a better place now, but for lack of better terminology was delusional. She pretty much wanted to be something I knew was impossible, and she tried to teach me such a jumbled mess that I still to this day am trying to clear it up. In her defence she meant well, but I knew that if I followed her I wouldn't be doing what my heart told me I should.


So here I sit, years later, after walking through fog most of my years, and hoping to clean it up.


Here's to hoping that 2008 will be the year I am finally able to meet others in my area with similar beliefs, and be able to learn more so I can clear the fog.